I apologize for the negative post previous to this one! Sometimes I feel like I am doing so well, and then I just let myself spiral out of control where I feel like all my hard work is put to waste and I get really hard on myself. I feel like all the training I have been doing has been making me bulk up…I know that is an exaggeration but I know what I like to look like, and how to be that way, so I decided I’m going to tone it down, work at my own pace with more cardio, and cut down my meal portion sizes. My trainer wanted me eating 5-6 meals a day and I feel like since I’ve been doing that, I am constantly anticipating meals when I’m not even hungry. I decided I will not time my food intake, and I will go back to “what I know” to be in the shape that I want. To get back to normal, and the size I’m comfortable with, the diet I went by was to eat a large breakfast with egg whites and a small green smoothie first thing in the morning…and then eat when I’m HUNGRY. When I am hungry I will still eat a clean diet, but I will not time myself like a little dog anymore. It’s exhausting thinking about food so much. I think it’s what has been triggering my cravings and overeating.
I am home from vacation and I already miss Florida. I miss being with my best friend, laying in my bikini all day and going out on the town. I am so fortunate to be able to have gone, it was a lovely break from everything. Now that I am home I decided I am going to de-clutter my life and my emotions. I made a new vision board also. It needed some updating from the last one
I tried to put an emphasis on purity, the importance of love, my fitness passion, my need for thriving adventures like skydiving and zip lining, it emphasizes my need for hiking and travel, as well as art which I’m strongly passionate about. I have it saved on my phone and on my Mac’s wallpaper image. I want to see it everyday and remind myself of my goals. Also, for the first time in ages-I have a magazine clip-out of one of my fitness Idol’s above my mirror in my room. I’m hoping it’ll trigger morning motivation to stick to my goals. It’s an AD for Lean Body but has fitness model Kelsey Byers on it, which as I’ve said before, is a HUGE inspiration. It’s so important to have healthy fitness inspirations. Too many young girls think that it’s so important to be the skinniest girl in the room when you should be really focusing on the inside, and part of that is a healthy body that will prevent sickness and future medical problems.
So Day 1, back in my groove I started the day off with a green smoothie, worked, and after work I had a long Epsom bath with Michael Buble Pandora, my favorite sage candle, and gave myself a face mask. It was great, then I went to Zumba with my friend Ashley, did about 20 more minutes of cardio, then prepared chicken and salad for the week. I was still craving ice cream so I made a Chobani yogurt with a little nutella and a banana and now my ice cream craving is gone. I have a week of exciting workouts ahead of me. Tomorrow I think I’m going paddleboarding and if not, at least running Greenlake with another friend, then I am doing a lot of hot yoga, a few Zumba classes, a could body sculpt classes as well as hiking to Melakwa Lake. I will lose 10 pounds by mid-December. That is my goal and I’m sticking to it!